This is becoming increasingly more difficult. I'd take him to my rooms. Lock him in. Keep him there forever.
If only it wouldn't doom us all. If only he wouldn't die anyway. If only he could actually get some enjoyment out of existence when he can't really touch or taste anything.
I look out over the city. The sun's beginning to make its move towards late afternoon. There are a few rays glinting off the closest Enetron tower. All the cars are still moving. People are still bustling. Busying themselves with home, work, kids, their own tragedies and triumphs.
Mostly with no idea about what we're doing.
What Jin will be doing.
It seems wrong, but then again it's exactly right. Because this is what we fight for. So others can enjoy Christmas. So others can have their lives, with all the happiness and pains therein.
Someone has to do it.
He kisses me, and I do my best to kiss him back. But it's not like it was. Of course it isn't.
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Date: 2015-04-11 07:56 am (UTC)If only it wouldn't doom us all.
If only he wouldn't die anyway.
If only he could actually get some enjoyment out of existence when he can't really touch or taste anything.
I look out over the city. The sun's beginning to make its move towards late afternoon. There are a few rays glinting off the closest Enetron tower. All the cars are still moving. People are still bustling. Busying themselves with home, work, kids, their own tragedies and triumphs.
Mostly with no idea about what we're doing.
What Jin will be doing.
It seems wrong, but then again it's exactly right. Because this is what we fight for. So others can enjoy Christmas. So others can have their lives, with all the happiness and pains therein.
Someone has to do it.
He kisses me, and I do my best to kiss him back. But it's not like it was. Of course it isn't.