He doesn't move, he doesn't try to defend himself or pull back even though it must hurt him.

It has to hurt him.

It's not fair if it only hurts me...

"It's not enough. And it never will be." I drop my head and drop my hands and back away from him, but I teeter on the edge of where the shadows end, because I'm so tired just now that stepping into the pure sunlight will probably knock me down too fast.

"I should just go back into the Deep Darkness and leave you all alone."