[Past Thread, for Kuroki]

[goldenikemen]

I know what I have to do, Kuroki knows what I have to do. I suspect the others, Emeric especially, have some inclination of what I have to do, whether or not they're choosing to consciously acknowledge it or not. It's the hardest decision I've ever had to make, and yet also somehow the easiest. When I look at Emeric, when I look at him and the other Busters, I find my resolve to be surprisingly unwavering.

When I look at Kuroki though... it gets more complicated. When he looks at me I feel horrible.

Can I really leave him again? Should I?

I shake my head, setting down the little blocks that I was toying with from my demonstration, and move to leave the main room.

I could use some air, even if it's just psychological. Maybe one last trip up to the roof, one last cigarette, even if I can't really taste it.

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[loveenetronkurorin]

I'm looking at Jin, and he's looking back at me. Always so much unspoken between us.

He has to sacrifice himself.

I don't want him to, and it's tearing at me inside. No matter what kind of existence he has now, no matter what hope he doesn't have for continued existence after the subdimension's destroyed. He still shouldn't have to do this.

And yet he still has to, and no one else can do it for him. I can't throw myself in front of this proverbial bullet for him. He's already lost thirteen years. Someone else should be able to take this, if anyone has to die at all. But I can't.

He puts down his blocks, and heads towards the exit.

I intercept him, a hand on his arm. "Jin. I'll come with you."